Trust Part 1

Isn’t life so CRAZY?  You step up to the plate, knowing you’ve studied the pitcher for months.  You’ve hit those batting cages, and you are prepared for anything.  The pitcher winds up, you’re positive you know what he has in store for you, and then, BAM!  A new curveball gets pitched, one you’ve never seen before, and it’s heading directly for your face.  This is the story of my life.  One tricky curveball after the other… Thank God striking out isn’t an option, or I’d probably move back to my home town, live off my mom and dad for a few years until I found a decent guy to marry me and care for me the rest of my life, and then die and hopefully go to Heaven.

Look, I’m not knocking that kind of lifestyle.  It works for some people.  But it doesn’t work for me.  I choose to get smacked in the face day in and day out for the sake of this overall PURPOSE that I feel I must complete.  Sometimes I wish I cared less.  Sometimes I wish I could just give it all up and become a bum.  But, if I’ve learned anything from my heartaches and struggles, the overall lesson I continue to learn is often times, Life has nothing to do with what we want, and everything to do with what God wants.

Do you ever feel like God is calling you to do too much?  What’s that all about?  Why are we given gifts and skills and yet no clear cut way to use them?  Hey, I’m American, what can I say?  I live in the land of RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW, so it makes sense that I’m demanding answers!  Right?

Maybe this muddy limbo stage for struggling young adults in their 20s is simply the extension of those incredibly awkward puberty years.  Both periods make us cry, WHY ME?!  But in the end, good is yet to come.  We know this through trial and error, but somehow, we have the hardest time allowing ourselves to TRUST.

Trust Part 2 tomorrow.

Peace,

Bryana

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How to Get What You Want

“In order to learn, one must want something, notice something, do something, and get something.”

Miller and Dollard – principle of psychoanalytic learning theory

Wanting something…

What do you want?  How are you going to get it?  These are questions I have been asking myself and encouraging you to ask yourself for over 2 years…  These questions are the main principles of developing your “identity” if you were an actor, and yet their relevance goes beyond the silver screen.

What do you want?  Don’t be afraid to dream big.  Dreaming won’t kill you, but not dreaming will. Continue reading

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An Excerpt

If you know me, you probably know by now that I am writing a book.  I wanted to share this small anecdote that I wrote yesterday in the midst of having – quite possibly – the worst day of my entire life.  I am a tireless optimist.  I simply choose to find the good in everything and everyone, even if the situation or pest of a human being does not deserve my faith.  However, I will not focus on the ridiculous events, as the story that developed in my imagination, I feel, has earned far more precedence… Continue reading

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What a Day!

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Fridays are always fresh.

On Wednesdays, I’m normally thirsting for a day of rest…and Sunday seems too far away, so Thursday seems to be the day that I don’t do much of anything.  Like clockwork, I awake on Friday mornings alive once again, filled with abundant – and slightly neurotic – energy.  This is my trademark.

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In It To Win It

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Let the Truth be told: when you commit to walking a path that promises everything beyond your own imagination, TRUE LIGHT SHINES.

This is what I have been experiencing for what feels like forever: the light of God.  No, I am not perfect.  In fact, everyday I am reminded through my own sin that perfection truly is my enemy, but God is my Love and Jesus is my friend.  Through God’s Love can I finally enjoy all of the wonderful things in my life.  I wonder how I once lived before? Continue reading

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A Positive Detour

I’ve taken a Leap of Faith.

I’ve been down many roads.  I’ve climbed up steep hills, tumbled across raging highways.  My highs were high and my lows were low.  I’m only 24 years old… I’m young and should be carefree, and yet, I feel incredibly driven.  I feel a fire within me, and I know this fire has something to do with The Man upstairs. Continue reading

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Give Back Love

Thanksgiving is such a joyful time of year.

Photo Courtesy of David Gunter

Whether you share this special day with old friends, precious family members, or a new acquaintance, you can always expect an overflow of kindness, gratitude, and love. There is always room for one more at the dinner table.  There is always left over turkey, too much cranberry sauce, and enough pumpkin pie to last you until Christmas.  What do I love so much about Thanksgiving?  That’s easy!  The smiles, the laughter, and the happy memories. (Oh…and the food, too!)

While in college, my Prima and I created a Thanksgiving Legacy.  For years, she flew in to NYC from Pittsburgh the day before the holiday.  We watched the Macy’s Day Parade (on TV of course) while we cooked a huge Servedio style Thanksgiving Dinner for 2 people.  We ate ourselves to sleep.  Literally.  Our first Thanksgiving I will never forget.  I bought a modest 10 pound turkey that I had begun defrosting the night before.  It was my first time cooking a bird all by myself, and I knew the frozen chicken breast I always purchased from Trader Joe’s defrosted in a relatively short period of time… Why shouldn’t my little Turkey Tina be the same?

Well, I was terribly wrong.  We took the bird out of the refrigerator, and began digging for the innards.  We tugged and pulled to get the bag of guts out, not realizing that, in a normal circumstance, they are easily removed.  I violated the bird by feeling her insides, and realized…This bird is frozen. How do you unfreeze a turkey the day you are supposed to cook it?

I called my mother.  She knows everything.  Bry… she said, You are just going to have to wait until tomorrow.  You can’t do anything about it. Bummed by the negativity, we called her mother: Christina… she said, You two are crazy.

Then the best idea in the world occurred to me.  I said, Preem, my hairdryer will fit in the neck!

A hairdryer?!?!  NO, Bryana! Prima said, You can’t use a hairdryer!

Preem…get the video camera.  I’m going in.

I rammed that hairdryer right into the neck of my gorgeous Turkey Tina.  She thawed out, and didn’t make a fuss at all.  We laughed.  We cried (onions really affect my tear ducts).  And most importantly, we shared the most delicious meal together.  My Prima and I.  Anyone else, and this experience would have been a miserable disaster.  But my Prima’s presence kept me happy, and I hope I returned the sentiment.  Thinking back on this memory, I feel joy in my heart.  This is loveIt’s for love that I am most thankful.

At this time in my life, I don’t have any romantic interests.  No man has stolen my heart just yet.  But I know love.  I know love in its purest form.  I also know how to love.  For me, this Thanksgiving is all about giving back love.

Have a healthy, blessed, and loving holiday.  I know I will!

My name is Bryana Servedio, and this is My Journey to the Quarter Life.


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